relationship preface

What does this have to do with...

Good thought to have, but it has everything to do with intent. I'm not "peace and loving" person by any means, though I can be. It takes but a moment for me to recognize what someone is about or their methods since I've been thoroughly exploring my own thoughts since I recognized the utterly antiquated yet not distilled version of me that has not become.

Keep this in mind as I tell you these stories.

Into a void that no one could see. Fuck "Dark, silent, complete," Chuck*. We're talking about knowing too much too soon

I learned long ago when I was a teenager that no matter how pretty I am or how skilled I am "at the sex," no matter how big my dick is, no matter how many songs I could write or how many drawings I could make, there is only one thing I couldn't do for attention - give attention to myself.

It's odd to explain, you know? We travel in our own minds. We all have short-term, long-term goals ever how selfish they are - they're still goals. Some people get attention by putting others down to draw others to think they're a "better choice." Some raise themselves higher than others - especially in quiet circles - to feel superior, a temporary ego - as it is.

* Reference to Fight Club, written by​ Chuck Palahniuk